The Times You Feel Unlovable


I don’t know if you know the story of Rachel and Leah found in the Old Testament of the bible. Basically, it’s the story of two sisters Rachel, the beautiful sister, (she was definitely a shiny girl) and Leah, the not so beautiful older sister. I don’t know much about the rivalry between sisters, only having the one brother (thankfully!) but reading this story I’m sure anyone can begin to imagine it.

You see, both the girls find themselves married to the same man: Jacob. Continue reading


Great Reads for Autumn 2016


I’ve recently had to move house and leave my job due to unforeseen circumstances. Thankfully I now have another job in the pipeline, once all the paper work has gone through.

It’s been a tough couple of months, but it has meant that in the last few weeks I have had time to catch up on doing some of the things I love, like reading and crochet!

These are books I have read and enjoyed during this transient time, that I think others will enjoy as well. I am thankful to the publishers and Netgalley for allowing me to read the following in exchange for an honest review. Continue reading

I Wish I Knew What She Knew


woman-1031508_1280There is one story in the bible that I have always struggled with, a story that has made me aware of my faults, and made me want a deeper understanding of God. That is the story of Hannah.

Hannah had a hard life, she was married to a man named Elkinah, but Elkinah had another wife as well, Peninnah.

That for one is something I couldn’t even begin to imagine, there is no way that I would want to share my husband with another woman. And then imagine what it would be like having to live with her, having to see her every single day! Continue reading

How to Find Freedom from Feelings of Loneliness


When I was in about year five or six at school, I remember my teacher asking the class to tell her all the times that they feel lonely. All the other children said things like: “When I’m in a field on my own,” or “When I’m in my room on my own.” I put my hand up and said. “In the playground.”

It felt like the entire class was laughing at me. I was humiliated. Because how can you be lonely when you are not alone? Continue reading

Tanya’s Testimony of Healing Today


A couple of weeks ago I read a story of a friend, Tanya Whitfield’s, healing. I asked permission if I could share it on here as I truly believe this is a story that will encourage many, many people. She graciously agreed, saying this wasn’t her story, but God’s.

About 20 years ago, I was diagnosed with Psoriatic Arthritis in my hands. This was managed successfully with medication & to be honest, I didn’t understand what having Psoriatic Arthritis meant.

Nearly 6 years ago, I had what has since been explained as swine flu. It was awful & I was very poorly. What I hadn’t realised straight away was that in the space of 2 weeks, the Psoriatic Arthritis had spread throughout my body & other conditions that had lay dormant, suddenly had a chance to spread & take hold of me whilst my immune system was almost non existent due to the swine flu. Continue reading

The Power of Hope

When we hear people mention the word hope we often think of some thing vague, something weak, something which is there to  lean on in times of trouble.

As if hope is the easy option. Except it’s not.

Hope isn’t just about hoping for nice weather or that the dress you really want is on sale. Hope is so much more, hope is about action, actually doing something. It’s about having faith, even when it seems impossible

Patrick Reagan puts it like this  in his book No Ceiling to Hope: “Hope is the refusal to accept a situation as it is.” That kind of hope is not definitely not easy. It takes courage and strength.

It’s hard when you’re waiting for a break through, when you can see so much potential in someone, but they just don’t seem to get it.

It’s hard every time you turn on the TV and see children dying, and leaders lying and people hurting other people. You wonder how there can be any hope in this situation.

It’s hard when everyone else has given up, when you’re the only one holding on.

Hoping in these situations can make you want to cry, it can make you want to break down and give up. But rrue hope holds on, even when it seems impossible, even when the wall of faith seems insurmountable.

What seems impossible it can only be made possible through Christ. The only way we can ever hope to hope is through him.

This hope is a strong and trustworthy anchor for our souls. It leads us through the curtain into God’s inner sanctuary. (Hebrews 6:19)

Without him we have no hope, we are adrift at sea.

Without him we are hope-less.

But through Christ we can hold on to hope.

A hope that anchors and grounds us, a hope that leads us into a deeper knowledge of him. A hope that refuses to give up, refuses to accept the situation as it is. A hope that has the power to change the world.

Hope is not for wimps, hope is hard. But through Christ it is possible to have hope in all situations.

Just Dipping my Toes in the Water


Do you ever feel as if you are not living life fully? That there is so much more available, but you are not quite getting it.

Do you feel like you are just dipping your toes in the water when there is a whole ocean to dive into?

You don’t mind it in the shallow end, there is no risk, it is keeping your toes cool… And you’re not going to ruin your hair.

But from where you are sitting you can see other people, jumping right in, getting covered in the water. Fully experiencing all that it has to offer. They don’t care about the risks and they don’t worry about their hair. They are in the deep end and loving it.

Sometimes I feel like this, like there is so much more on offer, that I am not quite taking advantage of. That there are things that I am not experiencing that I should.

Maybe because I am afraid. Taking risks can be scary. Living life in the deep end takes courage, but how much life is there in the shallows.

Sometimes I don’t try that hard at things for worry of messing up; sometimes I don’t put myself out there for risk of rejection; sometimes I don’t take up the opportunities that come my way for fear of failure.

I don’t use all the skills that God has given me and I don’t make the most of the opportunities that he has given me. I don’t step out in faith.

I do it with this blog, I don’t put in as much effort as I could, worried that if I try my hardest my words will still go unread. I can do it in friendships, not calling people when I know I should in case I annoy them. I live a life of fear, a life in the shallow end, in so many areas of life. But God doesn’t want this.

God calls us to live life abundantly.

People think that Christianity means giving up, living less. They focus too much on the sacrifice and not enough on the blessing.

 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly. (John 10:10)

Life without God cannot ever be a full life. Without God we cannot know true love, true joy or true peace. We cannot live an abundant life without him. He is the one who gives life. The only life worth living is through him.

When you reach your last days do you want to look back and think I wish I had done more, I wish I had lived more and loved more or do you want to look back at a life lived abundantly. A life full of adventure.

I know which one I would choose.